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March 20, 2003
warsick
I don't even know how to begin to talk about this war. We all knew it was coming, but it's still a shock. I remember sitting in front of the TV twelve years ago, watching the missile trails glow green and then explode into a truncated halo when they hit--when they hit what? land? bunkers? tanks? chemical plants? buildings? homes? civilians? and i feel the exact same fear and sadness and dread and shame that i felt when i was thirteen. something about it didn't feel right then, and it doesn't feel right now, and i can't get it out of my head, and i can't stop feeling sick or teary or angry, no matter how much i try to distract myself by doing random manly household things (this should be amusing to you, as i'm neither a man nor do i have good hand-eye coordination) like hanging up paintings with hammer, nails, leveler. but i don't care about the paintings and i can't get the images out of my head: we're levelling iraq, hammering them with missiles, somewhere someone's skull is shattering the instant after they feel an explosion that hits them with tiny molten nails of shrapnel.
and i'm 6,000 miles away, hanging paintings and thinking about dinner.
and of course i'm also thinking about C, and my family, and my friends. i'm thinking about innocent people that i don't even know here in the states. and i understand the need to kill sadam--go for it, should've been done twelve years ago. but i don't understand the need for all this, and i know and you know and the bush administration knows that this has nothing to do with "the war on terror" and everything to do with politics.
and it makes me sick.
Posted by me at March 20, 2003 11:39 AM
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